May 31
Woke up to the lovely sound of the neighbors moving. With help from a moving company. Needless to say, we didn’t sleep in. My only chance this weekend and they blew it. Bastards. So, we had really noisy sex and although I’m sure they didn’t notice or care because they were too busy moving, the important thing is that I felt way better about being woken up before noon. We met up with Evan and Rob for brunch and ended up being stranded at the restaurant because we had ridden our bikes and it was pouring rain. So we stayed and drank coffee for two hours until we were told to leave. Sigh. So we rode home in the rain and I was soaking wet by the time I got back to Ramon’s. I think I’ve caught a cold because of it.

May 30
I had to work today because I switched my shift to have yesterday off to do that presentation thing for my mom. So I worked. I got my period, but this time I was prepared for it. I brought tampons with me. Ramon met me after I finished work and we went and sat on Starbuck’s patio and had chai lattes. We wandered around for a while, stopped in to see some friends who worked around the area and then we went for chicken shawarmas. Did I spell it right this time? Does it matter? You know what I’m talking about. We went back to his place and hung out. Around 9:30 we decided to go out for a couple of drinks so we showered and changed and met up with Evan at Insomnia. Rob showed up late because he was working. We sat around talking and when Ramon and I got home I went right to bed.
Note: I just reread this week and I’m noticing that I mention sleep a lot. Interesting.

May 29
I did the toy taping for Space today and oh my Christ was it fun. I got to open up one of the Alien Queen box sets that just come in and although it took me almost ten minutes to get her out of the box it was worth it. I had so much fun it was stupid. It seems almost illegal that I should get to have so much fun at work and get paid for it. After I finished up with Nat, Ramon and I went for breakfast. Then I got ready and went down to meet my mom to do my presentation.

I love going to my mom’s work, especially when I don’t dress up and don’t match. I get a chuckle when I see her face. It’s almost like she wants to send me home to change but can’t because God only knows what I’ll come back wearing.

When I finished there, I walked home and did my laundry. Then I met up with Ramon and Trina and went for sushi. After that I went back to Ramon’s and went to bed. I tired. Busy day.

May 28
Willow and I were supposed to meet up to go to our meeting, but she was late. That delighted me like you would not believe. She is almost never late for things, and has berated me in the past for my lack of punctuality so this was great. I didn’t say a word; but inside I was giggling.

So, it’s set. July 25 2003 our comic release will be held at Mitzi’s Sister. They are so excited about it too. That’s great, I’m really happy they are so pumped about our book. Now all the serious planning can start.

I went over to Ramon’s to finish up writing some info for a presentation I am doing at my mom’s firm. Actually, I lied. I napped first, and then I worked. Sorry.

May 27
Tonight I met up briefly with Willow regarding our meeting tomorrow with the girls from Mitzi’s Sister. We’re planning on having our comic release party there and we have to finalize with them.

After that, I raced home to meet Bonnie. We then went to Carla’s and met up with the rest of the group and went for dinner. I ate way too much; I felt ill after I finished gorging myself. When we got home, I phoned Ramon to tell him how full I was and then I went to bed. Holy shit, I may never eat again. Just call me the anaconda queen.

May 26
I feel kind of disjointed. Like something is in my brain moving things around. I burst into tears last night at Ramon’s I have no idea why, I just started crying. I am not sleeping well, and when I do finally fall asleep I have nightmares to the point where I’m waking Ramon up with my whimpering. I think I’m going crazy…

May 25
No more stinky beer. Ever. Dave drove me to work and then left to go home. I miss him already.

May 24
YAY!! Dave is here! That’s right, Ottawa Dave is in my house right now! We’re going to go buy some food and head over to Ramon’s to start drinking before we go to a housewarming party. I bought this beer called Brick Bock and it had a picture of a monkey on it. I like monkeys.

We sat and watched Enemy At The Gates while Dave cooked. My really cool beer with the monkey on it? Tasted like monkey piss. Dave bought Maximum Ice and by the time we finished eating we were both kinda tipsy. We ended up walking to the party and once there we were each handed a Jell-o shot. Mine was red.

The party went on and we, me and Dave, got a little hammered. Ramon followed me into the bathroom at one point, and I didn’t know he was there so when I got up to flush he looked in and saw my poo. True story.

May 23
Remember the trouble I’ve been having sleeping? I slept through most of the day today. I know tonight will be harsh, though. The night always is.

Ramon, Jeremy and I went to Whitby for one of their friend’s birthdays. The party was in a back room at one of the local pubs. It was karaoke night. They had run out of Stella. Do I need to go on?

Actually, it wasn’t that bad. Jeremy and I talked for most of the night while Ramon did the social butterfly thing. A couple of people who went up to sing were really good, and for the people who weren’t I wanted to gong them so bad.

May 22
Today was my unexpected day off. I totally forgot about it, and when my alarm went off I was momentarily confused. Then I remembered that I was taping the toy segment for Space and had to go in anyway. Ramon helped me make a pie chart for it; I was illustrating why Batman is the obvious romantic choice for Wonder Woman and needed some concrete evidence. Okay, he made it. I sat and watched. He is so talented. Sitting up in bed, cutting and pasting, sniffling away because he’s allergic to cats. What a guy.

I got to work and set up for it, Natasha came in, saw me in my Batman gear and cracked up. The whole taping was lighthearted and fun and we had such a great time with it. She loved the pie chart. Then we went for coffee and had a chat. I really like her. She’s very down to earth and fun. I think we were sisters in a past life.

May 21
I still am having trouble falling asleep. And, once I do fall asleep. I have nightmares. I feel like I am slowly going out of my mind. It was a pretty busy day and I was thankful for that. When I got home though, I collapsed and slept until Ramon came in and woke me up. We had some food and then I went back to bed.

May 20
My step-father’s birthday. I called him to wish him well without my mother having to call and remind me. He was very impressed, and I earned major brownie points with my mom.

May 19
Today was a short day at work because of the holiday. Which was nice because I am having trouble sleeping and am now accustomed to afternoon naps. I pretended to grade comics all day when really I was fast asleep with my eyes open.

May 18
Today at work I was reminded of why I hate people. One lady phoned to ask if we were open. I don’t know of any stores that answer their phone if they aren’t. Then another person asked me if we sold masks. When I asked what type, he said like costume masks. I smiled indulgently and asked again what kind of mask as in what character. He stared at me blankly and said the kind you wear. I sent him to Malabars. I hope they aren’t too mad at me. I guess most of the people that came in were tourists and while I shouldn’t be upset because they don’t know the area, I can be upset when they ask for directions and then tell me I’m wrong. Fucking Americans. Know what? Buy a goddamn map if you don’t trust me. But do fuck off and go to the Gap. They’re just down the street.

After work I went home and to my absolute horror, I found that one of my cats had been locked in my room for two days. Since neither Bonnie nor myself had been around, she’d been without food all that time. Luckily, I sleep with a glass of water by my bed so she didn’t dehydrate. I feel awful, like I’m a bad person even though I know it isn’t my fault. She slips in when I’m not looking and hides under my bed. I guess I was in such a rush that I didn’t do my usual cat-check.

After much petting and cuddling, she seems to have calmed down enough for me to finish my work. I have a French door leading to my room, and to cover the glass for extra privacy I put up a door sized poster of Danger Girl. Kerouac, my cat, shredded the bottom in an effort to escape and I will leave that as a reminder of my neglect.

I was feeling so bad I took my bike out of storage and tuned it up to go for a ride. I had forgotten how great it is to feel the wind through your hair and hear the blood pounding through your veins as you strain at the pedals. And that was just to the end of the street. I’m a little out of shape. I have decided to ride from now on. Except in the rain. Let’s not be retarded. Ramon bought me a new lock for my bike and now I have no excuse for not riding everywhere.

May 17
We actually slept in, and by we I really mean me. I normally have to set the alarm because I have stuff to do except for today. Today although I have a bunch of work to do, I wanted to sleep in. So I did. And now I want to do that more often.

We went for brunch with Evan and dissected "the movie" again, much to the annoyance of the people sitting beside us. I thought we were doing them a favor by wrecking the ending, but apparently not. Went to make some copies for what I don’t know; I was merely tagging along. Then we went to the Beguiling, one my favorite comic shops apart from the Snail. I was looking for something in particular, and Peter had it. I was a very happy girl, let me tell you.

Went for dinner with Willow and Michael to talk about our upcoming trip to Chicago. We’re going to the convention and need to plan out exactly what we’re doing. Afterwards. Ramon and I went for a walk, hopped on the streetcar and went to his house. We watched a movie, I fell asleep and he carried me to bed. What a prince.

May 16
Today is Jessica’s 30th birthday. I went to school with her until grade eight when I moved. The last time I saw her was my 21st birthday many moons ago. I think it’s sad how you can spend so much of your childhood with certain people and you think that you will always have them around. Things change; people move on and nothing can be the way it used to.

Carolina and I went to the Indigo vendor open call this morning. Very exciting. When we were called to go in, the three people recognized our name from the samples we had sent a few months earlier. Nice. I got some good vibes from them so I’m keeping my fingers crossed that this will be the start of good things for our little business.

I went for lunch with my Mom and she really likes to shop. To the point where I’m a little worried about her. Is it possible to truly need that much stuff? Can you use it all before you die? I don’t think my Mom cares; it’s all about the having. This time though, she bought me a shit-load of what I affectionately refer to as ‘fertility wear’. These outfits are designed to get me pregnant, I’m sure of it. Why else would they be short, tight and missing cloth in strategic places? This latest haul received many appreciative grunts from Ramon. He likes my mother’s taste in clothes. Pig.

Because of last night’s huge disappointment with the movie (I can’t even bring myself to name it again), Ramon and I decided to watch the first one. Just to clear the mental palette, so to speak. I feel much better now, but I still refuse to go see that horrid sequel again.

May 15
Today was the biggest disappointment in my entire life. I went to see The Matrix. Sigh. I thought it would be good, I honestly did. I was so upset at the sloppiness of the film that I’m still unable to fully comment on it. And for you people out there who are going to email me to tell me that I’m obviously too stupid to "get it" I have this to say. When exactly did Tank die?

The Matrix: Reloaded reminded of why I drink.

Go here to see why I hated it: http://www.pvponline.com/rants.php3 Be advised though that if you haven’t seen the film this will wreck it for you.

May 14
After work I went to Carolina’s to figure out what we are going to take to the Indigo vendor thing we’re going to on Friday. I’ll be honest; I wasn’t listening when she told me about it so I really have no clue what’s going on.

Bonnie told her boss to go to hell. I wanted to let her know how proud I was of her, so we went to the pub. After three pints she decides to call Steve, her boyfriend. Instead, she dials Ramon’s number. We’re still unsure of how that happened exactly. So, she’s talking to Ramon without knowing it’s him. She realizes it isn’t Steve when she asks what he’s doing and he replies that he’s reading comics. As soon as she figured it all out, she laughed and passed me the phone. Good times.

May 13
Today after work I went for dinner with Stef. We tried the new Thai place down the street from the store. Really good food and lots of it. I will definitely go back there. We sat and talked about a whole bunch of stuff, mostly things going on in our personal lives and she has sworn me to secrecy so I can’t tell you any of it. Sorry. I respect people’s privacy…if I like them enough.

When I got home, there was a plant in front of my bedroom door. I thought that was odd, but decided that Ramon must have dropped it off. See, I was supposed to meet up with him earlier but then I went out with Stef so I didn’t really expect him to be there when I got home. I had left him a message explaining what was going on but I wasn’t sure if he’d think to check.
He had. And was in my bed waiting for me. Naked. Hell-o.


May 12
I was late for work today. I went to the doctor to find out whether or not I will have to have surgery on my knee and guess what? I don’t. He did recommend physiotherapy though, but I’m not too crazy about the idea of taking more time off work. Although I’ve been assured that it would be okay, I just don’t wanna.

After work Catharine and I went for sushi. I haven’t really spent too much time with her and I’m glad I went out with her. She’s neat and has lots of things to say so the conversation never stops. I like that. Usually people spend time trying to figure out what to talk about but not her. She just opens her mouth and starts and god help you if you don’t keep up! And she’s smart so we didn’t end up talking about stupid things like hair or fashion. I think I’ll add her to my short list of friends.

Bonnie came home late tonight after going to a work function where she found out her boss has been blaming her for all his mistakes. I have never seen her so angry and upset. She told me that he’s been telling his superiors that she’s lazy and stupid and doesn’t do her work. She was so mad she was shaking, and all I could do was hug her.

Then I suggested the flaming bag of poo.

May 11
Today I went back to work. I forgot how many steps there are in the store. Once I managed to get my ass upstairs, I stayed there. No more going up and down the stairs for me. I talked about gaming with Alex all day and we made some random characters for Heroes Unlimited. It’s one of the few games out there that makes fun of gaming. I have to go back to the doctor tomorrow morning to find out the results form my x-rays. In a nutshell, I find out tomorrow whether or not I need surgery. Hurrah.

May 10
I had today off too. Which was great because I did a bit of walking yesterday and my knee was killing me this morning. After breakfast Ramon and I hung out until it was time to get ready for the other thing we were doing for Carla: a boat trip around Toronto harbor. I know, big whoop-dee-doo but the point of this was to do something she’d never expect. And since we surprised her last night she never even saw this coming.

I was having a great time sitting with Ramon and my friends when I suddenly remembered that I hate water. And boats. Oh well. It’s all for Carla. She came up to me later that night and asked how I was doing with the water and stuff. Isn’t she sweet?

May 9
In celebration of Carla’s 30th birthday, we planned a surprise dinner for her at Steve’s house. The big surprise was the Carla’s brother Serge had flown their cousin Sonia in from Peru for Carla’s birthday. Bonnie and I were to keep Carla busy until everyone showed up and to do that we took her for drinks at Gypsy Co-op. Unfortunately for us Carla was in the mood to drink and so going for a quick drink before dinner turned into a drunken mess. We forgot what time we were supposed to have Carla at Steve’s and had to keep calling him. We finally manage to drag her out of the bar and over to Steve’s and once she saw her cousin there she began to cry. It was great. Just to see one of my best friends overcome with emotion like that was amazing. Happy Birthday, Carla.

May 8
Took the day off to sleep. I need it. I’m only taking the painkillers when I absolutely need them. I have stopped taking the anti-inflammatory pills. I just don’t like the fuzzies I get in my brain when I wake up after having taken one. So I suffer and take Advil instead. I am very upset though that I spent $60 on pills I can’t take. And you can’t return them if you don’t use them so what am I supposed to do with them? Stupid jerks.

May 7
Again with the leaving early. This time I went to have x-rays done so that the doctor will finally take me seriously. As if the swelling and lack of mobility isn’t enough proof. He gave me a prescription for an anti-inflammatory and painkillers. The instructions he gave me were to take two anti-inflammatories and a painkiller every 4-6 hours. Let me tell you something. I took one of those fucking pills and it knocked me out for three hours straight. How the hell am I supposed to function? Stupid doctors with their stupid miracle pills.

May 6
I left work early today because of my bionic knee. I’m on my way to see the doctor and to hopefully get some painkillers. Not that I’ll take them; I plan on selling them to the school kids that come into the store.

May 5
I am still feeling the after effects of being tired. On top of that, I have wrenched my knee and it’s swollen pretty badly. I have to go to the doctor soon I think to get it checked out. I hate going to the doctor though. They always want to give me pills and painkillers rather than try and help the actual problem. Jerks.

May 4
Today would have been my seven-year wedding anniversary if I’d stayed married. I shudder to think of how different my life would be if I hadn’t stuck to my guns and left. Weird how one seemingly small incident has the power to change your entire life.

While over at Ramon’s I tried this stuff that Rob brought over called Sphincterine. Yes. It does exactly what you think it does. It makes your bum all minty fresh and tingly. I giggled for about an hour after I used it. If you can find it, buy it. It rocks.

May 3
Soap show. By the time we had set up, Carolina and I had already had two tazo chai’s each. So, we were pretty wired for sound. We found that as long as we kept up with the caffeine intake we were fine. It was after the show when we were going home that we ran into problems. I went over to Ramon’s because we had made plans to go out and I stupidly thought I’d be okay to go. I also stupidly thought that if I had a nap I’d be fine. Three hours later, he wakes me up. I can’t really be upset though, he thought he was doing a good thing by letting me sleep. What a sweetie.

May 2
X-MEN 2! Hfjdhtuwhskgvncbsoieut84hfkvh3euthsknvowsuhthywetvlsn.

And that’s pretty much how I was talking after the movie, it was that good.

May 1
After work, Willow and I had our meeting. Then I met up with Ramon and had some food. He went home to work and I went home to wait for Julie ‘cause tonight is dancing night. She finally showed up late, as usual, and we decided to try out the tequila she had brought over. As soon as she opened the bottle I thought there might be problems. After the first shot, I knew there would be. I could no longer feel my feet. I have no idea what they put in that stuff, but oh my god was it awful. It’s like they tortured the poor worm before they put him in the bottle and you can taste every single agonizing moment he went through as he died. Then Diederik came over and also had some shots of the shit. You know, for a guy who’s over six feet tall, it didn’t take much to get him on the same drunk page as us. Then we went dancing. And I showed up on Ramon’s doorstep at 3am. Again. I don’t know what he sees in me…

Apr 31
This day does not actually exist. Please continue reading.

Apr 30
Carolina’s after work to finish up the soap stuff. I know that if I don’t go today, I won’t have a chance to do my share before the show. So I’m going.

Apr 29
I have tonight off from soap. And Willow. She wanted to meet up but I managed to put her off until Thursday. Julie came over to spend the night because she lives far away and won’t be able to make it to work in time tomorrow morning. Ramon came over for a while but I had to kick him out so Julie and I could get some sleep.

Apr 28
After work I went over to Carolina’s to prepare for our upcoming soap show this weekend. We still have so much to do; I don’t know if we’ll ever get it all done in time. We have figured out what we still need to make and now it’s all about getting down to it. Sigh. I’m already tired and we haven’t even begun.

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