In the tarot deck there is a fool card. The card represents optimism, blind faith, taking the leap without looking at where you are falling....

The more defined explanation is this:
The Fool represents the "everyperson" - the essence of us all embarking on the journey of life, self-discovery and mastery. He is the innocent, the whimsical, the "inner child" mixed with the "inner sage" that lives down deep inside of us all. He faces life and his journey unafraid, trusting, the perfect example of total and utter faith that all will be well, that every experience has a deep essential meaning. He trapses along the crags of life, regardless of any hidden peril or disappointment, his eyes are turned to the heavens and he knows that he will be kept safe and whole along his travels. Key words associated with the Fool are new beginnings, important decisions and optimism.

The Fool is sometimes known as the most worthless card, yet also as the most valuable one. He is the first and the last, the alpha and the omega. It represents both the fledgling beginner and the adept master. The Fool reminds us of things, sacred things, that we have forgotten or repressed. The Fool knows his or her own ignorance, thus is seen as the most wise.

The Fool represents the Negative space above the Tree of Life, the source of all things. It is the Qabalistic Zero, the Equation of the Universe, the initial and final balance of the opposites, both the father and the mother - male and female, in an abstract sort of way. The Fool is intricately linked with all 21 cards of the Major Arcana - in fact, many theorists maintain that the other Major Arcana cards are parts of the Fool's whimsical journey of self-discovery, culminating with the Number 21 World Card, bringing successful completion, accomplishment and fulfillment. Because the Fool is trusting and open to all experiences, he provides the perfect role model as we too embark on our life journey. The Fool coaxes us to walk our own path, not the path of the "herd". To trust our own inner voice, our intuition and our inner knowing and to embark on our life course with faith and a stout heart. We need trust, faith in the goodness of life and people, and an undying belief that all will work out exactly as it should.

The Fool is the ultimate "Free Spirit" - this card represents the self-actualized person, free from societal constraints, someone who is able to let go of outmoded beliefs and ideals with the courage to pursue their own special path.

This card is me. I am two parts, very dark creatively, but deep down inside am this very optimistic little girl. I walk around trusting that people won’t do me wrong, that life has so many open doors and opportunities, that life is a huge adventure and I need to take it. But the biggest part is I take leaps on blind faith. I am embarking on a writing career, no income coming in, sitting and pounding away at a keyboard hoping someone will love my stories. I won’t go through life not living my dreams. I try it once and if it doesn’t work, I move on, never looking back. I also am this way with relationships, I take chances and have done this all my life. I've done it again recently.

Normally when something doesn't work, I confront it and I don't get the results I want I walk away. Recently I did that, when I did, it really fucking hurt! When I walk away, I never, NEVER return. Except in this case. For some reason, I did return. I gave it a second chance.

I shouldn't even being doing this or complaining about it. I chose to allow the second chance, to do something I have never done before. The last few weeks since doing so ,have been awesome. I walked away because I deserve 100% and wasn't getting it. Then, then... I started having that feeling again, even after I thought all the facts had been made, very clear and I thought they were understood. In my head I thought things were going a certain way but in fact, they aren't. My idea of 100% is apparently not the same for everyone else.

I wasn’t sure what to do. What I wanted to do is cry and bang my head on a wall. I was so incredibly angry, felt like a complete idiot. I am also trying hard to be patient, see where things go, I gave a second chance and need to see it through. But, after years of dealing with my anger the wrong way I have figured out the best way to deal. I learned the hard way I need to walk away, calm down then deal with the issue. Which is what I did this time around. I also realized that because I am The Fool, I need to believe, have faith and forge ahead. Continue on this journey. It was presented to me for a reason and I need to have faith that the right things will happen. With the exceptions of these little crags in the road, this person makes me very happy. A happy I’ve never felt before in my life.

I have two motto’s in life, ‘I refuse to live my life with regret or fear.’ and ‘ I don’t want to ever say, woulda, coulda, shoulda.’ So with each day I will continue to wake up and take that leap, no matter when I land!