Leap of Faith
Ever take a Leap of Faith? It's a scary thing. Trust me. I just took one. Not sure how it is going to pay off or work out for that matter, but I took it just the same.

Baby steps I'm reminded. Patience will be a key factor here. Deep breaths and it will all be fine. Problem is I'm tired of being patient, tired of dragging my feet.

I decided to take this leap when I was once again reminded that life is too short. One of my dearest friends told me she has breast cancer. She is in her mid-forties, too young to be sick. And here is the kicker, she finally figured out what she wants to do with her life. I know her and she won't let this stop her from living her dreams!

If we want things we need to go after them, rather than sit around wondering what if.

Could of...
Would have...
Should have...

I am no longer saying these things.
I'm grabbing the goat by the gruff and I'm not letting go.
I'm catching that dream cloud and pulling it to earth.

I don't care how scared I get in the process, fear equals adrenaline and I live off that stuff. Plus, if we don't feel fear or are nervous from time to time, we really aren't living life are we?

I need, we need to take chances in life. We aren't going to fulfill our dreams otherwise. We are put on this earth for a reason, and if we don't live that reason, then what was the point?

I often say, why can't I just get one break, one chance. Guess what, no one is going to give me that chance if I don't make my expectations, dreams and desires clear. I can't sit around thinking the 'what if'. No one is going to hand it to me. I need to just take it.

Somewhere I lost the girl who use to take chances. She was fearless and driven. Some how she went away. In February, after my Dad had his stroke, she started to reappear again. Started to show me I had to get her back. It's funny how people become uncomfortable when a woman starts showing some of her tough. Slowly she was creeping back to me. Monday, was the full on slam dunk. Yesterday she tested if I still had it.

This time I'm not letting that girl go. Besides, she's stubborn and has a strong grip.

J, I love you and you are the strongest person I know. If anyone can beat this it's you.