Reflection of a Time Not-so Long Ago

His insecurities showed immediately. I knew when he hung up the phone with me without saying he loved me, that he was going to have one of his moments. So he shows up online a couple minutes later (as expected), asking if I need him. I laugh to myself, lucked out by the fact that he cannot see or hear my reaction. Do I need him?? That is the craziest question in the world to be asking a woman like me. I ask him if he recalls my independence before we met. He says he does. I ask if he thinks my independence has changed since we met. He says it hasn’t. I then tell him, no I do not need him that I do love him, but do not need him. I do not need anybody. I haven’t needed anyone in ages. I will not resort to being that way. I see females every day; give in to that way of life. Needing a male. Succumbing to their needs and wants. Making them feel “like a man”. What is that bullshit? If a man can’t feel like a man with an independent female like myself and all the other amazing ones out there. Then screw them. They are just insecure little boys, trapped men’s bodies. Strong women are few and far between, but we are out there. We get called bytches, cunts, dykes (nothing wrong with being a lesbian, but don’t call us one to try and insult us), whores (I find this generally quite amusing), etc because we don’t have to rely on a man to make us feel good. I know I am awesome. I know other women like me are awesome. Just because we don’t give in and behave like helpless women that need men, doesn’t give you men (and women) a right to call us names and what have you. Yes, be scared of us. We are well spoken and are taking over the world one bytch at a time.

Anyways, to finish my story. He did recall and understand I am how I am and will not change for anybody, hence why he loves me so much. He does accept it. It just seems from time to time he needs a reminder that I do love him, but I will not behave like his former girlfriends. He said he is still getting used to my ways. He feels pathetic that he knows he needs me. I am his world. That is fine by me. He may need me, but accept that he will have me when it suits my schedule and me. I am a princess, but not of the typical sort most men look for. I am strong, outspoken, fearless and independent. I am woman hear me bytch!

This piece is a reflection of a moment from my past. This boy was NOT strong enough to be with me and I had to let him go. He couldn’t handle my independence and maturity. Too bad for him, he’s missing out! Every day guys will get left behind in the dust of another fabulous woman, who’s not scared to walk two steps ahead.