There are some things that I have come to accept as I get older, I am  beginning to look like my mother, I will only have one really true friend, I am EVIL and I will always be the town freak.  It has taken a while for me to figure out the latter.  I couldn't figure it out.  I took a long look in the mirror and I don't have a second head, purple skin or antenna's (but according to the religious guy on the street car the other day, I probably have horns and a tail).  For many years it really bothered me.  Growing up, kids, and we all know how cruel they can be, would call me freak girl and weirdo. Please don't think all small towns are like this.  I am sure there are some very nice ones out there.  I am also sure they are very hard to come by.  Not everyone is miserable growing up in a small town.  However, I was.  Completely!!!  I couldn't wait to get out.  I graduated high school and then said Adios,  I couldn't get out fast enough.  Believe it or not I do go back there.  My parents and sister still live in that town, so I don't really have much of a choice.  (they could always relocate, hint, hint)  Each time I do go back I ended hiding out at my parents house, because I don't want to face the jerks I grew up with.  It's funny though, I got out and almost all of the losers who picked on me as a youth, still live there.  It almost makes me feel as though I should thank them.  Why? It is because I was treated like shit by them, I became a stronger person.  It is because I didn't give in to what they said about me, it made me very independent.  They made me want to leave and to make damn sure I never had to go back.  I do also feel sorry for them, because I got out and they didn't.  I guess in the end they are getting back the punishment they dished out to me, three fold.  Thhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.  Sorry, that was childish, but, I feel soooooo much better now.  Thhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!  Last week I also did a pro's and con list of growning up in a small town.  You can check it out here.

Here is why I will always be the town freak!!!

~I always use to wear black and I still do.  Apparently small towners have come to the conclusion that this means you are either, psychotic, depressed or a freak.

~I was into art, studying the occult, reading horror and science fiction,  and writing.  Apparently have a brain and using it, is looked down upon, in the town I grew up in. 

~I wanted to move to Toronto.  According to the people I grew up with, everyone that lives here is a freak.  I guess they forgot to take into consideration, that Toronto is an amazing city.  It has diverse culture, energy and something cool to do everywhere any time of the day.  I think that if you don't live in Toronto, you are the freak.

~I wanted to do something with my life.  I didn't always know what it is.  In the last 5 years I finally figured it out and I am doing everything to ensure that I do it.

~Getting drunk every night of the week and listening to heavy metal and hillbilly music was not for me.  Sorry if I just insulted trailer trash!  Not everyone that listens to Hillbilly music are bad people.

~I preferred reading H.P. Lovecraft and Edgar Allen Poe to Archie comics.  You want a real comic try reading Sandman, Lenore, Batgirl, Dawn, Squee, Gloomcookie and Promethea.  Those are real comics. (they are also some of my favorites).

~Not only do I know what Sushi is,  I eat it.  I also eat Thai food, Tofu and drink bubble tea.  

Damn, after reading my list, I guess I am such a freak and a weirdo, but I am VERY proud of it and I will wear my freak badge proudly.  If I could only find it under my large pile of I HAVE A LIFE buttons.!!!

I HAVE SPOKEN!!!